Hebrews 12:6-For the LORD disciplines those he loves, and he punishes each one he accepts as his child
Beloved, are you stuck somewhere in your life? Have you been there a long time, seemingly unable to progress no matter how much you commit to yourself to change, to get it right, to make a dent in progress? If so, and you're a believer, there is a lesson for you right there where you are that you're simply not taking a hold of. Consider for a moment...could it be possible that God is constricting you to fix you? Constrict means:
- To make smaller or narrower by binding or squeezing.
- To squeeze or compress.
- To restrict the scope or freedom of; cramp: lives constricted by poverty
You're stuck. And, you're stuck for a reason. I believe God doesn't move you past your last act of disobedience and He does it specifically to fix a problem and bring about a change in you that is needed before you progress to the next step. God is order and He does all things well. Don't think you're going to slop through a life in Him. Yes, God is love and yes He is a good Father. If you're His....if you're His child He will discipline and correct you. Not just to break you (He does sometimes break your will and make you wish you'd obey) but the goal is to equip you, to make you fit for use. As you suffer, remember the end of your suffering is to establish, strengthen and settle you through your experiences with Him in each season of your life (1 Pet. 5:10). He loves you so much He won't leave you alone as you are so instead He leaves you right where you are in your hot mess of life until/unless you desire change and obedience rather than sacrifice. That is the reason your life feels so confined and the resistance to positive, lasting change is so stifling, upsetting and frustrating!
If I repeatedly merry-go-round on an issue in my life seeing the same thing over and over and over...I realize then the situation is speaking to me and I'd better listen up. I've learned that God speaks in a multitude of ways that are consistent and thorough, the problem is never Him speaking! Its always our "not listening" ears that He won't shout into. He won't shout over your lack of willingness to do the hard thing, to discipline yourself, to change and repent. You have free will and God respects that free will He gave us---despite our wishing He'd just make us change! God is truth Beloved. Don't you know truth and revelation never have to shout? Only deception covers itself over in disguise, whispering sweet nothings or shouting freedom that's really bondage. Truth quietly and simply stands bare, naked and in place. It doesn't move or change from day to day. It stares you right in the face until you accept it and take a hold of it. You can pretend its not there...you can blur it with self-medicating things to soothe the ache but still it stands. You need truth to face this confined place in your life. You need revelation to clearly see what to do and how to do it.
Dear one, your quagmire has a purpose. You're constricted for a reason. Get the lesson---apply this truth to your life and see if its true. Its simple and not difficult. God won't hide from your request for wisdom concerning your life and relationship with Him (James 1:5). Write down your life story, what's going on right now? Then, get alone with God, pray, ask Him to show you what the issue is. He'll speak so be prepared to obey. I believe you'll be amazed how you'll finally and swiftly move forward and out of your purposeful constriction!